I’m not sure what happened or why, but towards the end of the year, my urge to blog and write dried up like a desert. My ‘voice’ was gone, sucked up by the holidays and the craziness of it all, and all of sudden I felt completely lost without something to say. And yet, my inner dialogue continued. Which… is NEVER a good thing.
Let me clarify, I am not in a personal funk – just a writing funk. I’ve actually just returned from a lovely vacation to paradise with my family and am feeling on top of the world. I’m just trying to explain where I’ve been although it’s becoming apparently clear to me that there’s really no reason for it.
Blogging for me has been an efficient and affordable means of therapy, a self-preservation tactic if you will. Navigating the roller coaster of life without my mom and best friend has been a challenge at certain pinnacles and depths and writing about her and our relationship has been cathartic. That was the primary reason to starting this blog – that and I was curious to peek behind the curtain of the blogging and tweeting world.
But all of sudden, I felt tapped out and without purpose when it came to blogging. The word “niche” kept rattling around in my brain. You need to have a “niche” when you blog – yeah… well, I don’t. And I’m writing to tell you that I’m ok with this.
So I’m dusting my keyboard off and re-engaging – or at least going to try. Sometimes, the hardest part is just taking that leap off the platform into the cool water. Right?
So for 2012 I promise the following:
- to blog when I have something to say
- to continue to make noise about breast cancer awareness and issues
- to talk more about what it means to be a motherless daughter and a motherless mother (because I know this all to well)
- to vent about issues around my kids education in the California public school system
- and finally, I reserve the right to blog about total bullshit that only I think is interesting because hey, this is my blog and I will do what I want with it.
From time to time I will also blog about home projects where I will demonstrate my mad crafting and homemaking skills. Or not. Because I’m not really sure I have any skills whatsoever but I like to pretend that I do and this may serve as comedic fodder.
And that’s it.
So there it is. My first post in awhile and the first for the new year.
And without further ado, let’s kick it!